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I'm transgender and have struggled with it my entire life. I spent years using drugs to cope; I'm sober now but feel like it's too late to make any changes. I a

I'm transgender and have struggled with it my entire life. I spent years using drugs to cope; I'm sober now but feel like it's too late to make any changes. I also work as a contractor, so expressing myself feels dangerous, I worry it'd be harder to get new client work. I'm doing well professionally, but it all feels hollow and pointless. Like I'm just running in place till I keel over. Thanks for asking, it helps to talk about it <3

Javantea_ 7y ago
I hope you feel better. Don't worry too much about work, risks are justified when you feel like it's time. Let me know if I can help.
zanny 7y ago
> I spent years using drugs to cope If you spent years using drugs to cope, wouldn't your transition be over by now? Oh, wrong drugs... I actually recently discovered theres a whole transDIY thing on Reddit. It never even occurred to me that even for F2Ms with Testosterone being a steroid they aren't highly controlled substances and thus its rarely illegal to buy them online. All the sex hormones / blockers are pretty damn expensive though.