Trial and error as a programmer dealing with depression and anxiety accounts for a lot, but for resources I'd point you to Robert Sapolsky's lectures on Behavio

Trial and error as a programmer dealing with depression and anxiety accounts for a lot, but for resources I'd point you to Robert Sapolsky's lectures on Behavioral Biology (here: https://youtu.be/NNnIGh9g6fA https://youtu.be/NNnIGh9g6fA). Sapolsky's lectures are great for getting a Biology perspective to how human's operate. Jordan Peterson's has lectures on Personality (here: https://youtu.be/kYYJlNbV1OM https://youtu.be/kYYJlNbV1OM) which are also great and echo similar ideas from a Psychology perspective.