If the exact "thought" already existed before consciously running through them, it should not change with the language you use, but I don't believe that is the

If the exact "thought" already existed before consciously running through them, it should not change with the language you use, but I don't believe that is the case, not only talking about yourself in third-person affects your thought, the link between language and thought goes much deeper, even if the specific of it is fairly contentious. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Linguistic_relativity https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Linguistic_relativity