It's quite possible to live an enjoyable and fulfilling life without believing in an afterlife. And if you enjoy life, it doesn't seem so bad to bring others in

It's quite possible to live an enjoyable and fulfilling life without believing in an afterlife. And if you enjoy life, it doesn't seem so bad to bring others into it, especially if you enjoy each others company. You sound like you might be depressed/feeling hopeless. And if you think that's the case, I'd highly recommend finding a therapist to talk to. Try new ones until you find one that you click with. They might be able to help you find a bit more happiness in life.