All you need to know about suicide is it's a fleeting thought that enters your mind usually after you've consumed a lot of alcohol/drugs, and if you don't call

All you need to know about suicide is it's a fleeting thought that enters your mind usually after you've consumed a lot of alcohol/drugs, and if you don't call anybody to talk you down from doing something embarassing, you'll regret it, because everybody I've ever talked to who tried to kill themselves was completely embarassed and swore it wasn't them, it was just a temporary mental illness who ruled their existence for all of 30 minutes or so before they changed mood. Anyway, if you enjoy solving problems go work for academia, they're always hiring programmers, they pay next to nothing, but you won't be stressed (unless you fuck up somebody's thesis) but otherwise it's pretty easy. I did it for 5 years and it was the best decision I ever made: working with post-docs and grad students bleeding information from them, total autonomy to do what you want, union position so impossible to get fired, you get a letter from the post-doc's shilling your abilities you can use for grad school. Look at your local universities for these positions, guaranteed no local student will take them because they don't pay enough.