I think I know what you mean about programming being stressful. It’s not the code per se but programming boils down to getting something with the intelligence o

I think I know what you mean about programming being stressful. It’s not the code per se but programming boils down to getting something with the intelligence of a fly (a computer) to anticipate all the needs (known or unknown) if users while coding in tech stacks that actively encourage things to go wrong, in a world where hackers are one step ahead of everyone, and if anything goes wrong you need to cycle up your brain to 100% to quickly fix it or the business is in trouble, while just being a salaried employee. Even when working for a laid back company I feel stressed with all this. I’m sure the same stress is in other jobs. Sales people have their targets and seem to get fired more easily. Support people deal with irate people all day. Not sure how to solve your problem but if you can live more cheaply, try to do 30h a week or less, maybe figure out what kind of programming job would be less stressful, and scratch some side project itches in your spare time with friends. I reckon that might help. As for the depression - go see a professional right away. That’s the #1 priority. Book it now.