I feel that you have some sort of veil of depressive desperation clouding your mind right now. This will follow you no matter where you go. I suggest for you t

I feel that you have some sort of veil of depressive desperation clouding your mind right now. This will follow you no matter where you go. I suggest for you to define what you really like/want/feel inspired about and take immediate (possible little) action steps toward it. Action is a key. Theoretizing about why/why not/what is/what if - is going to keep you in a swamp with no progress. I been there. Take action steps toward something you love right now without waiting for perfect conditions.