Forgotten to put reading into that list, I have weeks or months where reading is my goto activity (although less last 12 months). But honestly, despite my curio

Forgotten to put reading into that list, I have weeks or months where reading is my goto activity (although less last 12 months). But honestly, despite my curiosity for everything, I don´t believe books can help me become a better version of myself. Books like Homo Deus by Yuval Noah Harari are interesting, but that´t pretty much it. Then you have books about how to be better at something (yourself), by forming good habits and so on. At the beginning (when I didn´t known much about anything), these books had been useful. But now, nothing I read touches me / changes me a bit. It´s all more of the same. Still useful for conversations, though. Meditation, tried it several times. I don´t get it. Sometimes, nothing happens in my mind and I just sit there for minutes, observing nothing. Other times I can observe thoughts appearing and wandering off, then I refocus on my breathing technique. Both experiences do nothing for me. I feel the same afterwards, I do the same activities afterwards.