On the off chance your reading comprehension has improved since you read my initial comment, it is worth pointing out that I was referring to my personal experi

On the off chance your reading comprehension has improved since you read my initial comment, it is worth pointing out that I was referring to my personal experience when I said "most of it was in my head and self-inflicted." 'Alpha' is a term of our times. Sorry, I don't define the language. Substitute 'cool kids' or 'socially elite' if it makes you feel better(assuming you want to feel better... maybe you enjoy being righteously indignant?).