I am a trans woman who was taking Propecia before switching to stronger anti-androgens. Propecia destroyed my libido and made erections difficult to achieve - y

I am a trans woman who was taking Propecia before switching to stronger anti-androgens. Propecia destroyed my libido and made erections difficult to achieve - yes, more than having a testosterone that is close to zero. I constantly felt weak, as if I was about to faint. These were also some of the darkest months of my life. I was constantly having sudden suicidal thoughts, the kind that jumps on you even when you're healthy. I'd go on with my day and my head would ask me "should we die?" to which I would have to answer "no". There was no voice of course, I'm describing feelings. All symptoms I've never had before and have never had since. Reducing testosterone has stopped all hair loss, so I no longer need to take Propecia anymore. I am not saying that those side effects are common, merely that they exist. Could it be that the people you met online were also telling the truth and that there is no conspiracy?