At a very low point of my life, I read a book that had an idea that tickled me out of it. In the first few pages the protagonist decides to end their own life.

At a very low point of my life, I read a book that had an idea that tickled me out of it. In the first few pages the protagonist decides to end their own life. He is absolutely committed to ending it. Once the decision was made he realized that there is no longer any significant consequences to anything. So he will do whatever he wants until he eventually kills himself. In the end the adventure he went on helped him realize that there is something to life and he backed off. Giving up can be freeing. It is a declaration of emotional bankruptcy.