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working on my crippling depression / ADHD, unemployed (i don't want to work anymore in anything) 6 months , 0 productivity. learned a lot of category theory, fu

by ltr_ 7y ago

working on my crippling depression / ADHD, unemployed (i don't want to work anymore in anything) 6 months , 0 productivity. learned a lot of category theory, functional programming and c++ tho.

imafish 7y ago
Sorry to hear that but good that you are working on it. Life will look better to you in the future if you keep at it. Psychotherapy worked for me in the long run (1+ years) - suffered from severe depression for more than two years.
gjm11 7y ago
If you learned a lot of category theory, functional programming and C++ then your productivity was not zero.
- rorykoehler 7y ago
  That's what I thought too. I yearn for more time to learn
peteforde 7y ago
Hang in there. You're definitely not alone, and it does get better. I'm happy to listen if you ever need someone to talk to who has been there, and in important ways is still there. As others have said, don't be so hard on yourself: that you're teaching yourself useful stuff is the opposite of zero productivity. In fact, you're probably learning faster than if you were doing it while employed. My best suggestion is that your local library will likely allow you to download an app such as Libby that will allow you to listen to audiobooks for free. During my downtime, nothing has brought me more respite from my depression than listening to - no joke - about 200 books. I alternate between sci-fi and non-fiction. I never would have imagined myself a listener, but I was very wrong.
yopo 7y ago
I was just like you. This free self guided video series changed my life. Please, please, PLEASE take a look and give it a chance. https://www.coursera.org/learn/happiness https://www.coursera.org/learn/happiness
abledon 7y ago
are you lifting weights and exercising? If not get on it ASAP. Revert back to the physical-activity-heavy lifestyle of our ancestors and you'll feel better
- ltr_ 7y ago
  I walk a lot, but I'm thinking on start a video series with fitness exercises.
  - abledon 7y ago
    a pullup bar fit in a doorframe in apartment can do wonders + bodyweight exercises. Just put your routine in a FOR-loop and grind for increased STRength and STAmina stats lol
- taneq 7y ago
  If you hate exercise, try physically-active VR games. You don't even feel like you're exercising (although you sure feel it the next day!)
  - xchaotic 7y ago
    AFAIK that's not enough calories burned to get you into caloric deficit. You need more intensive or longer exercise
    - taneq 7y ago
      It's not as simple as "X will make you lose weight or not." Caloric deficit depends on both your intake and expenditure. You can out-eat almost any exercise regime so a somewhat healthy diet and reasonable portion sizes are always going to be important. Active VR games are a legitimate cardio workout. Sites like https://www.vrfitnessinsider.com/reviews/ https://www.vrfitnessinsider.com/reviews/ have real data if you don't believe me. As for duration, I've seen people (including myself) happily play Beat Saber for hours who don't last 10 miserable minutes on a treadmill.
ltr_ 7y ago
thanks for all the support I'll check the links.
davidscolgan 7y ago
As someone who recently discovered unaddressed ADHD has been holding me back so much for so long, as well as experiencing that numbness of depression too, you are not alone and I have felt at least some of what you are experiencing. I wish you all the best in working through it.
DoreenMichele 7y ago
Start a journal to track your diet and any pertinent symptoms. After a week or two, when you have a baseline picture of your current diet, look up some articles on research connecting diet and depression. Off the top of my head: Certain oils are pertinent -- some should be avoided, others sought out -- and iron deficiency can cause depression.
k4ch0w 7y ago
I hope things get better for you. The hardest part is taking that first step. I've been there and I know how hard it is to even get out of bed. It's cheesy, but what really helped me was listening to motivational tapes like Les Brown/Jim Rohn/Eric Thomas. I'd just go for a walk while listening to them and over time it got a little bit easier.
seventhtiger 7y ago
I have been there too. When you are injured or ill, your duty is to survive. You can flourish and achieve when you are healthy again so don't go on holding yourself to what you can expect in other contexts.

by ltr_ 7y ago

working on my crippling depression / ADHD, unemployed (i don't want to work anymore in anything) 6 months , 0 productivity. learned a lot of category theory, functional programming and c++ tho.

imafish 7y ago

Sorry to hear that but good that you are working on it. Life will look better to you in the future if you keep at it. Psychotherapy worked for me in the long run (1+ years) - suffered from severe depression for more than two years.

gjm11 7y ago

If you learned a lot of category theory, functional programming and C++ then your productivity was not zero.

rorykoehler 7y ago
That's what I thought too. I yearn for more time to learn

peteforde 7y ago

Hang in there. You're definitely not alone, and it does get better. I'm happy to listen if you ever need someone to talk to who has been there, and in important ways is still there. As others have said, don't be so hard on yourself: that you're teaching yourself useful stuff is the opposite of zero productivity. In fact, you're probably learning faster than if you were doing it while employed. My best suggestion is that your local library will likely allow you to download an app such as Libby that will allow you to listen to audiobooks for free. During my downtime, nothing has brought me more respite from my depression than listening to - no joke - about 200 books. I alternate between sci-fi and non-fiction. I never would have imagined myself a listener, but I was very wrong.

yopo 7y ago

I was just like you. This free self guided video series changed my life. Please, please, PLEASE take a look and give it a chance. https://www.coursera.org/learn/happiness https://www.coursera.org/learn/happiness

abledon 7y ago

are you lifting weights and exercising? If not get on it ASAP. Revert back to the physical-activity-heavy lifestyle of our ancestors and you'll feel better

ltr_ 7y ago
I walk a lot, but I'm thinking on start a video series with fitness exercises.
- abledon 7y ago
  a pullup bar fit in a doorframe in apartment can do wonders + bodyweight exercises. Just put your routine in a FOR-loop and grind for increased STRength and STAmina stats lol
taneq 7y ago
If you hate exercise, try physically-active VR games. You don't even feel like you're exercising (although you sure feel it the next day!)
- xchaotic 7y ago
  AFAIK that's not enough calories burned to get you into caloric deficit. You need more intensive or longer exercise
  - taneq 7y ago
    It's not as simple as "X will make you lose weight or not." Caloric deficit depends on both your intake and expenditure. You can out-eat almost any exercise regime so a somewhat healthy diet and reasonable portion sizes are always going to be important. Active VR games are a legitimate cardio workout. Sites like https://www.vrfitnessinsider.com/reviews/ https://www.vrfitnessinsider.com/reviews/ have real data if you don't believe me. As for duration, I've seen people (including myself) happily play Beat Saber for hours who don't last 10 miserable minutes on a treadmill.

ltr_ 7y ago

thanks for all the support I'll check the links.

davidscolgan 7y ago

As someone who recently discovered unaddressed ADHD has been holding me back so much for so long, as well as experiencing that numbness of depression too, you are not alone and I have felt at least some of what you are experiencing. I wish you all the best in working through it.

DoreenMichele 7y ago

Start a journal to track your diet and any pertinent symptoms. After a week or two, when you have a baseline picture of your current diet, look up some articles on research connecting diet and depression. Off the top of my head: Certain oils are pertinent -- some should be avoided, others sought out -- and iron deficiency can cause depression.

k4ch0w 7y ago

I hope things get better for you. The hardest part is taking that first step. I've been there and I know how hard it is to even get out of bed. It's cheesy, but what really helped me was listening to motivational tapes like Les Brown/Jim Rohn/Eric Thomas. I'd just go for a walk while listening to them and over time it got a little bit easier.

seventhtiger 7y ago

I have been there too. When you are injured or ill, your duty is to survive. You can flourish and achieve when you are healthy again so don't go on holding yourself to what you can expect in other contexts.