It has meaning if you think it has meaning, it doesn't if you don't think it does. You say it has no meaning but then you say you won't end your life because it

It has meaning if you think it has meaning, it doesn't if you don't think it does. You say it has no meaning but then you say you won't end your life because it will cause suffering for people you love. So immediately it has at least one purpose - not to un-necessarily cause suffering to those you love; and meaning through that as well