Same age as you, and I'm doing the same thing. I'm continuing as a software engineer to pay the bills, but I pursue music, games, and at one point in my career

Same age as you, and I'm doing the same thing. I'm continuing as a software engineer to pay the bills, but I pursue music, games, and at one point in my career was a graphic designer and illustrator (though perhaps not very successfully; I'll get back to it at some point). I'm about to start learn electronics as I'm interested in building robots and making custom guitar pedals. I don't think I could ever be laser-focussed (95% sure I'm ADHD; used to think I was bipolar but not sure about that diagnosis anymore). Embrace your neurology.