This is what the comments above from HONEST_ANNIE and thrav mentioned as well. It's a promising territory to explore, but also going down the path of absorbing

This is what the comments above from HONEST_ANNIE and thrav mentioned as well. It's a promising territory to explore, but also going down the path of absorbing existentialists literature feels terrifying to me, based on my past experience of reading Nausea by Sartre. What I liked in Emerson's Self-Reliance is the idea of trusting ourselves in finding or deciding on the meaning of our own life, cultivating this ultimate freedom to decide and take responsibilities on our own.