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I suffer from severe depression. The surprise with LSD was actually that it made me happy. I had expected (and got) weird colors etc, but I thought its emotiona

I suffer from severe depression. The surprise with LSD was actually that it made me happy. I had expected (and got) weird colors etc, but I thought its emotional impact was somewhere from neutral to negative. In about 8 trips over as many years, I haven't had a bad experience, except one that just went on too long and became exhausting. Yet I have had friends that are far more psychologically stable react negatively to it. I've never seen anyone react badly to MDMA, and I think it may actually be more useful for emotional work. LSD makes me generically happy, but I'm more likely to develop a fascination with areal mapping than gaining any introspective. Marijuana is pure hell. Sleepless nights of mild nausea, intense headaches, and terror nightmares. And mixing it with alcohol drops my blood pressure to syncope/sweating/panic levels.

sharkweek 7y ago
Thank you for sharing. It’s interesting to hear how happy it made you. If you don’t mind expanding on that feeling I’d love to read more specifics.
- shaki-dora 7y ago
  It's just a state of extreme bliss, plus (and distinct) an appreciation for all sorts of suddenly very beautiful things: music, landscapes, people, etc. Sound especially feels incredibly precise and 3-dimensional. Long term, the effect is rather small. I didn't have any negative hangover as some people apparently do, but rather a sort of low-intensity glow that slowly diminishes. In terms of treating depression, I don't think it made much difference either way. But since I have been suffering for as long as I remember, it was actually the first experience of such strong feelings I now at least know what improvement would feel like.