I did the same thing. Got by without really trying. Never went to lectures, studied for a month before the exams. Got 1st class marks. But I didn't do it becau

I did the same thing. Got by without really trying. Never went to lectures, studied for a month before the exams. Got 1st class marks. But I didn't do it because I was lazy or because I wanted an easy life. I did it because I was afraid of failure, utterly terrified. For smart people who come from less than loving families, fear of failure is the hardest thing to overcome. It's such a shame because what I really wanted to do was research... Dreaming up new ways of doing things, but I just didn't stand out enough to get the chance because I did no work. Now I am a jack of all trades who knows a little about a huge range of things. But I could do so much more if I didn't have to build crud apps every day, uch, kill me now.