Ok fine. Just google Ketamine + depression out of curiosity. I think I’m the one that understands you the most here. I still think I have terrible genes, that

Ok fine. Just google Ketamine + depression out of curiosity. I think I’m the one that understands you the most here. I still think I have terrible genes, that I shouldn’t procreate and that I’m a failure. But, a few weeks ago, I couldn’t leave my place for 6 months. After a big mushroom trip, I feel far better. When you are depressed, sometimes you need chemicals to stop the negative loop. Some guys, after going to war, have terrible PTSD. Ketamine was the only way. If I wanted to die, I would at least try to have some fun with drugs before ;).