Being a full time open source independent research in an extremely tight financial spot, due to my cursed idealism, what means of surival are there for someone

Being a full time open source independent research in an extremely tight financial spot, due to my cursed idealism, what means of surival are there for someone who can't stop working on my obsession? I am an honest to God searcher of the truth, so I'd hate to turn this into a commercial project. Also getting a job would be a highway to a psychiatric hospital due to being overworked. Done that multiple times and wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy, Anybody have experience on how to make this lifestyle work, or do I have to give up on my dreams and get into to the line as the rest? http://tbf-rnd.life http://tbf-rnd.life http://sigma.eruditenow.com http://sigma.eruditenow.com * had I been the kind of person who have enemies