I will not deny that I am biased as I am pretty sure I am afflicted with ADHD and it fucked up parts of my life well and good. So, by all means, take it with a

I will not deny that I am biased as I am pretty sure I am afflicted with ADHD and it fucked up parts of my life well and good. So, by all means, take it with a grain of salt and do your independent research. That said: >I've thought about ADHD before, but I'm just not sure. There are plenty of situations where I feel engaged enough to do a single task for a long time. I can read a book in one sitting. I can binge watch entire seasons of GoT (or any number of other series) back-to-back. So it feels like grasping for ADHD is just a cop out of actually learning how to study or how to adult and I feel like even more of a failure. This again is not untypical, some call it "hyperfocus" which I hate because it sounds like a superpower while it probably just is what neurotypicals call "flow". Do you get "in the zone" while doing your taxes? Or do you get into it while devouring information, researching things you find super interesting or in the initial phase of a new project? If it is the latter, it fits. ADHD does not mean you are unable to concentrate at all - it means you have troubles concentrating on boring tasks, on extrinsical tasks, on yak-shaving problems. It still allows you to go super deep into some rabbit hole you find interesting in the moment. If I were you, I'd research the symptoms and different presentations (https://www.cdc.gov/ncbddd/adhd/diagnosis.html https://www.cdc.gov/ncbddd/adhd/diagnosis.html) and see how well they fit. If they fit, maybe head over to https://old.reddit.com/r/ADHD/ https://old.reddit.com/r/ADHD/ to read some personal perspective. The sub is not super high quality, and confirmation bias is an issue, but I felt it is a good resource to check how well I click with others from an ADHD background. And if you still think that maybe there's more to it than being a failure, seek treatment. A bit of Adderall or Ritalin should give you a pretty good idea whether your functioning can be improved by meds. Exercise is extremely valuable as well. Good luck (and no, you are not a failure :)