My desire to make it so for myself. No I am not a psycho, I am an educated and balanced individual. It pains me to see how people do not realize that sometimes

My desire to make it so for myself. No I am not a psycho, I am an educated and balanced individual. It pains me to see how people do not realize that sometimes it is worthwhile to die peacefully than living in utter pain. Worse, it drags down immediate family, society and govt money. All for trying to reduce the torture they are going through. Sometimes there are individuals who have no knowledge of torture they are going through - they cannot eat, cannot sleep, always in pain, do not have money, and yet do not know what to do. I am going to live and die on my own terms, unless it is a sudden unnatural death (ex. Accident).