This is hard. I know; I struggle with it too. Many people struggle with it. I imagine your director has struggled with it in his lifetime. I mention these thin

This is hard. I know; I struggle with it too. Many people struggle with it. I imagine your director has struggled with it in his lifetime. I mention these things to point out that you are not alone in this. For me, I fake it. I've practiced pretending people like to meet me and talk with me, and that they consider me a good friend and valuable colleague. This kind of pretense helps me see beyond my own fears. It helps me see myself reflected in their eyes: that they see me as plenty good enough. You are plenty good enough too. Seriously. Try to look at yourself reflected in others' eyes so you can see that. Good luck and strength with your struggle. It gets better!