A year long existential crisis where I nearly dropped out of college (where I went, you needed to learn everything yourself, the professors wouldn't help, I don

A year long existential crisis where I nearly dropped out of college (where I went, you needed to learn everything yourself, the professors wouldn't help, I dont reccomend it). Then I came upon a poem at just the right time called Curiosity, by Alistair Reid, and I followed that up with a rereading of asimov's the last answer