I wouldn't take ranting on cassette tapes and then offing yourself as a sign of mental stability(and i would be more likely to be selected for a jury as a resul

I wouldn't take ranting on cassette tapes and then offing yourself as a sign of mental stability(and i would be more likely to be selected for a jury as a result). The average judge wouldn't even bother listening to the tapes and would ask for a transcript and MAYBE listen to one or two tapes for emotional context(good luck if those were the most incoherent tapes). Also you are SEVERELY over-estimating how much empathy the average society has for dead people. sure it's shocking but the human mind bounces back REALLY quickly. if it didn't then every school shooting would paralyze the state/country it happened in for years(and clearly it doesn't). it took the world only a decade to forget the atrocities of the world war. 9/11 is a joke to most people now and mostly written off as a one-off. You don't effect change by taking your ball and going home