I always respond to these things too late, but I'll say just two things. 1) What are the chances that out of everything you could do with your life, you are cu

I always respond to these things too late, but I'll say just two things. 1) What are the chances that out of everything you could do with your life, you are currently doing the only thing that is fun/fulfilling/enriching/the right thing etc? Don't fear change. The same skills, curiosity and drive that got you this far can do it again, possibly faster and better the next time around. 2) It's great that you feel responsible for your engineers, but your first and foremost responsible is towards yourself. If you've tried your best to create the kind of team/culture/department you wanted too and it wasn't possible, try again somewhere else before it nags away at you. I assume everyone that works there is an adult, and they can make their own decisions about where they want to work too. And one more thing: Don't try and be the guy with the money, be the guy smart enough to know how to make the money.