I've noticed a similar trend for myself but a bit broader. It's more that anything I do, I have to somehow see as an achievement or purposeful. I've been consid

I've noticed a similar trend for myself but a bit broader. It's more that anything I do, I have to somehow see as an achievement or purposeful. I've been considering new hobbies as of late, but my mental model dismisses them quickly if I can't answer "what would this accomplish?" Unless it's a baseline activity requiring no mental energy (think food, drink, tv, socializing) it's hard for me to consider it without the previous question answered. Example, for the longest time I never read any fiction as I couldn't see the point. Reading some HN comments over the years and hearing reasons like "you read fiction in order to tell better stories", led me to see the "value/accomplishment" in reading fiction. So now, I read a little fiction in addition to all my self-development books, not because I enjoy it but because it's supposedly good for me. I then wonder why all my "hobbies" seem to be draining and not rejuvenating.