I hope others with more experience will be able to chime in. I haven't gone through anything this severe, but I have paid a lot of attention to the problem of s

I hope others with more experience will be able to chime in. I haven't gone through anything this severe, but I have paid a lot of attention to the problem of suffering. I found secular Buddhism to make a lot of sense to me. The main premises are that all suffering is rooted in our mind. We suffer when something happens that we don't want. We either lose something that we're attached to or we get something we want to avoid. I started paying more attention to this and found that every time I'm angry, sad, upset, frustrated or dissatisfied it's because my mind is unwilling to just accept the way things are in the moment. The buddhist path is a quest to change your mind in such a way that it does not cling to things that are not. The result is supposed to be happiness in yourself, independent of circumstances. I can't say that I've made much progress or gained a lot of experience. This is still new to me, but it makes a lot of sense to me. Maybe it's something to look into foe yourself. Resources: Book: why buddhism is true by Robert Wright The mind illuminated by John Yates Website with lots of interesting audios: culadasa.com Also, you may want to try therapy. From what I've heard it may take a while to find someone you click with, but it can be very well worth it.