I suggest finding a language that you can learn online. It does not have to be what you really want to learn, just one you can get stared with. Ruby has some

I suggest finding a language that you can learn online. It does not have to be what you really want to learn, just one you can get stared with. Ruby has some decent lessons out there where they tell you what to type, you type it, and see the results. First, like an essay, create an outline. Write what you want the output to look like, search stack overflow for examples, and it will get easier. I learned Matlab, essentially deleted it from memory, and felt as you describe a few years later. I had to relearn it and just pushing myself with the pomodoro technique (20 min on, 5 min break) worked. Good luck.