By all means, have a nervous breakdown. Argue your case with passion even though you know it is futile, just so you can say you tried. Engage in the necessary s

By all means, have a nervous breakdown. Argue your case with passion even though you know it is futile, just so you can say you tried. Engage in the necessary structural destruction of your life required to transcend into the next chapter; either that, or be trapped forever. You clearly aren't satisfied, and you will never regret being true to yourself.