Yep, I've been through it - lived a life that sounds vaguely similar to yours, and hit rock bottom through burnout starting about 12 years ago, and only started

Yep, I've been through it - lived a life that sounds vaguely similar to yours, and hit rock bottom through burnout starting about 12 years ago, and only started to emerge about 3-4 years ago. Life is pretty good now. Still not perfect, but getting better enough for long enough to give confidence that the future is bright and worth putting in the effort for. For me the turnaround started when I embraced non-mainstream subconscious emotional healing techniques, which gave me a system for working through past traumas, fears, resentments; all the emotional baggage that weighed me down, one grain at time. These practices helped me to understand why I felt these feelings, and to learn healthier ways of thinking and conducting myself, so I could let all the baggage go and progress in life with more confidence. There's a few of these techniques around. NET (NetMindBody). Psych-K. Holotropic Breathwork. EFT. Hypontherapy - the Milton Erickson version or the Dolores Cannon methods. Family Constellations. Plenty of others that I'm not so familiar with. It's a journey and if you're like me you'll need to engage different modalities on the way to get to things on different levels and from different angles. But if you stick at it long enough, it works and things get better. All that said, if you're at risk of harming yourself or others, you should certainly see a conventional therapist and seek their advice before undertaking any of these approaches. These techniques are all perfectly safe, but are not a replacement for psychology or psychiatry if you're in a dangerous place. For more info, look for books/talks by Dr. Bruce Lipton and Dr. Gabor Maté. And feel free to email me if you want more advice. Address in profile. Love and best wishes to you.