I had to make the story shorter, but the company now exists and is running. It's just not the way I initially imagined: I'm making some money building products

I had to make the story shorter, but the company now exists and is running. It's just not the way I initially imagined: I'm making some money building products for other companies while I try hard to improve and sell my own. It seems to me that what ruined my life was my inability to deal with the anxiety of undertaking a very large project totally on my own, having to deal with emotional highs and lows being patient enough to wait for the results -- very large projects take time especially when you are working alone. I feel confident that things will improve, specially now that I think I understand better what I've gone through, but it costed me a lot.