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You sound like you might be on the verge of becoming depressed (if you aren't already there). There are also some unsubtle hints that you're experiencing impost

You sound like you might be on the verge of becoming depressed (if you aren't already there). There are also some unsubtle hints that you're experiencing impostor syndrome. You aren't alone. I suggest looking around and seeing what resources are available to you. Personally, I benefit immensely from weekly therapy, but this is not available to everyone.

shmooth 8y ago
They definitely already depressed. Need to call up a therapist and book an appointment for tomorrow afternoon, go, and then start to feel better. Not sure where to get a recommendation for a therapist -- best thing is to just call, book the appointment, and go. Tell them your problems, ask what you should do. Then go from there. If that therapist sucks -- I figure 35% will -- then do the same thing with a different therapist. Find someone close to your office or home.
- shmooth 8y ago
  ...will add that, yes, a terrifically-horrible code base can and will depress you -- as in, clinical depression. i think just like anything, spend some time studying the code. maybe it will eventually start to make a bit more sense once you become familiar with the over-engineered, abstracted-to-hell piece of shit object-oriented codebase.
throwaway476 8y ago
A couple of people mentioned depression. I am a little scared of ending up in such a condition. I will maybe try to find a therapist to visit. It has been on my mind to go to one, but I have been and still am afraid it might go wrong ? Since I was little I've had this very active imagination - spacing out to some fantasy world is a constant part of daily life. I do it while walking, listening to music and often while I am around other people. Day dreaming helps me escape life for a bit and I am scared to talk to anyone about it. Because it's silly and sometimes concerning - I think about saving the world, climbing mountains, visitting other worlds, or hitting/killing other people during some conflict (imaginary people, not those from my life). It's a big part of me and I've never talked to anyone about it. A therapist might make me talk about it and that scares me. Thanks for the advice.
- ikarous13 8y ago
  Sharing aspects your inner world with another person, especially a person who is nonjudgmental, may be quite a validating and relieving experience for you. A therapist can't and won't make you talk about anything you don't want to talk about. What you share (or don't) is entirely up to you.

shmooth 8y ago

They definitely already depressed. Need to call up a therapist and book an appointment for tomorrow afternoon, go, and then start to feel better. Not sure where to get a recommendation for a therapist -- best thing is to just call, book the appointment, and go. Tell them your problems, ask what you should do. Then go from there. If that therapist sucks -- I figure 35% will -- then do the same thing with a different therapist. Find someone close to your office or home.

shmooth 8y ago
...will add that, yes, a terrifically-horrible code base can and will depress you -- as in, clinical depression. i think just like anything, spend some time studying the code. maybe it will eventually start to make a bit more sense once you become familiar with the over-engineered, abstracted-to-hell piece of shit object-oriented codebase.

throwaway476 8y ago

A couple of people mentioned depression. I am a little scared of ending up in such a condition. I will maybe try to find a therapist to visit. It has been on my mind to go to one, but I have been and still am afraid it might go wrong ? Since I was little I've had this very active imagination - spacing out to some fantasy world is a constant part of daily life. I do it while walking, listening to music and often while I am around other people. Day dreaming helps me escape life for a bit and I am scared to talk to anyone about it. Because it's silly and sometimes concerning - I think about saving the world, climbing mountains, visitting other worlds, or hitting/killing other people during some conflict (imaginary people, not those from my life). It's a big part of me and I've never talked to anyone about it. A therapist might make me talk about it and that scares me. Thanks for the advice.

ikarous13 8y ago
Sharing aspects your inner world with another person, especially a person who is nonjudgmental, may be quite a validating and relieving experience for you. A therapist can't and won't make you talk about anything you don't want to talk about. What you share (or don't) is entirely up to you.