I mean, you go for variety. There are countless games / type of games to choose from. You can also watch shows/films/educational content. Read interesting stuff

I mean, you go for variety. There are countless games / type of games to choose from. You can also watch shows/films/educational content. Read interesting stuff on social media / hn. So many different interesting ways to spend your time. And online communities can give you the bit of social validation you need without being productive to society or justifying aspects of yourself. To me the bigger cause of not enjoying it was/is external life getting back at you, notably worries about the future. I don't want to go to far into personal details, but I enjoyed it long enough to be confident I could indefinitely, if our society would be supporting it. This might be fine for a "robots do all the work" kind of future, but I have my doubts about UBI. Anyway, after some point you most definitively want help to get out. As for mental health, there are probably reasons that made you retreat, but it likely caused new issues as well. But that's just one part of a well functioning support network.