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I've heard voices for as long as I can remember but immediate link most people jump to with psychosis meant I never told anyone until I was in my 30s. Only when

I've heard voices for as long as I can remember but immediate link most people jump to with psychosis meant I never told anyone until I was in my 30s. Only when I heard, I think, a RadioLab episode where they mentioned somewhere around one in ten do did I think that maybe I'm not teetering on madness. It happens whenever I manage to stop thinking, which isn't often. This makes two things incredibly difficult - getting to sleep and meditation. Getting to sleep I've pretty much nailed thanks to melatonin and Radio4 through some speakers under my pillow. Meditation though I've pretty much given up on - the second I manage to reach any kind of meditative state I hear snippets of speech which _always_ kicks my brain into thinking about what the voice just said. I feel like I haven't actually relaxed in 40 odd years.

ebg13 8y ago
So now that you're no longer keeping it completely private, have you spoken to a therapist, psychologist, or psychiatrist about it? It sounds like it's caused you a lot of strife for a long time. > Only when I heard, I think, a RadioLab episode where they mentioned somewhere around one in ten do did I think that maybe I'm not teetering on madness. I'm obviously not your doctor, but whatever is happening to you so much that you haven't been able to relax in 40 years probably doesn't happen to 1 in 10 people. Certainly not to the degree that you describe. ”This one time this thing happened” isn't the same as "I can't sleep because of the voices". But anyway, maybe the whole world is teetering on madness.