I think the best thing you could do is to find a therapist to discuss these feelings with and help you work out a plan for you. A lot of high "performers" regu

I think the best thing you could do is to find a therapist to discuss these feelings with and help you work out a plan for you. A lot of high "performers" regularly work on their mental health. Nobody talks about it but you see it with high performance athletes, CEOs etc... Another idea is to focus on your unique skills and do those well. You may find that your skills have no use in one company but are invaluable in another. So it's a matter of context that defines high performing. Just to note that health scares only briefly change behavior [1]. Some ways to help make a change permanent is to develop a support network and physically change your environment so that something negative is no longer accessible. The last part of having a support network is huge. You may see someone who is a high performer at work and school and as a Dad but they have a spouse who shoulders at least half or more of the burden. In work they may have a team to rely on and in school a study group. We really should look at high performant teams instead of individuals. We like to assign success as a function of the individual but really it takes a village. [1] http://www.nbcnews.com/id/35584798/ns/health-behavior/t/scared-straight-after-health-threat/ http://www.nbcnews.com/id/35584798/ns/health-behavior/t/scar...