For some time now it has been on my mind how the... how to best express this? the default stance is that everyone wants to live as long as modern medicine can s

For some time now it has been on my mind how the... how to best express this? the default stance is that everyone wants to live as long as modern medicine can stretch their lives. Very reluctantly, a few places relatively recently began to allow people with debilitating conditions to end their lives at their will. As far as I am concerned, I already only live because I feel a duty to the small school(-ish) I started and finance. It was always meant to be a relatively short lived affair. When your bucket list is empty, you are alone in this world, when you don't have anything to look forward why go on? I have known for years now that I don't particularly want to survive my 50th birthday (some six years from now) and there's no dignified way to just end it.