For me it depends on the day. I believe I want to live forever if it's forever in health and non-poverty and freedom. The fact that I will not live forever re

For me it depends on the day. I believe I want to live forever if it's forever in health and non-poverty and freedom. The fact that I will not live forever really effects my thinking and what I'm willing to do. As just one example, being older I know that I can't go dedicate 10 years to living in another country to learn a language or I could but I've only got at most 2 10yr chunks left, more like 1, before my ability to be free and healthy and non-poverty change. Or similarly to change my career or go back to school. I'm already in my mid-50s. Conversely I'm lost, isolated, and without direction, have no close friends, no partner, and find it exceedingly hard to fix and so the thought of just calling it quits does pop into my head.