1) I've had a long string of spectacular and demoralizing failures over a couple of years: being cheated out of $9M in cryptocurrency, being banned from competi

1) I've had a long string of spectacular and demoralizing failures over a couple of years: being cheated out of $9M in cryptocurrency, being banned from competing in battlebots at the last minute, marriage issues, losing a legal battle with my city, business failures, money problems, depression, disilusionment with our justice system, people who wouldn't pay what they owe me... It just didn't feel like anything I did made any difference so I just stopped doing almost everything for about 8 months. 2) I'm back on antidepressants and taking baby steps with family and business. Trying to take joy in small triumphs, and not trying to bite off so much at once. Saying "NO" anytime someone asks for help. Basically sticking to small simple things with guaranteed success upon completion. I'm not sure I'm going to ever be as altruistic or optimistic as I was.