I am SO sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to understand or appreciate the gravity of what you have experienced. In my humble opinion, the best thing you

I am SO sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to understand or appreciate the gravity of what you have experienced. In my humble opinion, the best thing you can do to put life back together, and honor your father's memory... is to mentor someone else. Pay it forward, if you will. This will cement the lessons he taught you, in your mind, and you will learn more through experience. I would also venture to say that you will come up with wisdom of your own, as times goes on. As much as it hurts, this experience of losing your father, and how you respond to it, in your life... will be part of makes you who you are. If you ever need/want to talk, don't hesitate to drop me a line.