Get some bereavement counselling - coming to terms in something that must seem so unjust, can't be easy. It will be very useful to be able to process the hurt

Get some bereavement counselling - coming to terms in something that must seem so unjust, can't be easy. It will be very useful to be able to process the hurt you're feeling, in the company of someone who has good experience helping people who've dealt with similar losses.