1) Realizing the hard content from graduate school was not making myself more employable. Trying to become more employable on the side. Eventually dreading a su

1) Realizing the hard content from graduate school was not making myself more employable. Trying to become more employable on the side. Eventually dreading a subject I was passionate for. Lack of guidance or direction, covering more than necessary for my own understanding rather than studying to the test... Withdrawing myself 'for focus'. Refusing to give up and move on, wasting a lot of effort and mental health. 2) I left. Not entirely empty-handed.