Hope is definitely there. As long as we are alive, there is hope. Please hang in there. As many people here, I as well can relate to many aspects of what you ar

Hope is definitely there. As long as we are alive, there is hope. Please hang in there. As many people here, I as well can relate to many aspects of what you are currently going though. I'm sending you some positive energy and can share one practical advice - consider attending your local tech meetups (find them here: https://www.meetup.com https://www.meetup.com). There is a very good chance that conversations with people there will open you to various and unexpected (in a good way) career opportunities. But first (or in parallel with meetups) try to reach out to people here who offered you some networking help (myself included). Best wishes!