Based on my experience, this sounds like someone who takes it seriously, but isn’t happy about feeling the need to carry. That doesn’t make them less effective

Based on my experience, this sounds like someone who takes it seriously, but isn’t happy about feeling the need to carry. That doesn’t make them less effective or safe, it’s an internal struggle. I carry every day, and have for over a decade now. It changes your mindset (for the better), and makes you confront your own feelings ahead of time.