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Cancer really gives me shivers. I can be hit by a car this evening and get killed. I can get a stroke in sleep and not wake up tomorrow morning. I could even b

Cancer really gives me shivers. I can be hit by a car this evening and get killed. I can get a stroke in sleep and not wake up tomorrow morning. I could even be electrocuted by some stupid accident I make while tinkering with electronic components. Somehow all those "types of death" are fine for me. They are accidents, bad luck, whatever. But they all come sudden. Knowing that you are ill and will not get well again and can just "sit around" and wait till you die. That really hits me whenver I think about it. Nevertheless I don't see a doctor regularly to do a checkup. I'm in my 30s, maybe I should start doing that.

gus_massa 8y ago
I don't want to make you more nervous, but there are some car accidents that are not fatal but breaks so many things that you have a loooooong time to recovery with many operations and medical problems (perhaps you loose most of your liver?). I'm not sure if they are predictible fatal after a long time. Some with heart or brain stroke. There are some variants between no stroke and fatal stroke.
- martin_a 8y ago
  Oh, I know, I know. I crashed with my motorcycle and had a concussion on my milt. Didn't think about it first but realized how bad it was, after doctors wouldn't let me go after four days in hospital. There is lots of scary stuff out there, I'm aware of that. Maybe it's also about the "actio = reactio" thing in my head. Crash = you may die or be severly injured. Overweight might lead to strokes, ok. I can grasp all of those concepts and understand them. But cancer can just come out of nowhere and it could kill you, although you did nothing wrong.
  - skohan 8y ago
    Yeah it was like that with my dad. He was super fit, didn’t drink, probably worked too much but that was about it as far as vices. But all the same the cancer came and just swallowed him up. We tried everything but it was just the disease was totally indifferent to our efforts. Before that experience I never really got what the big deal with cancer was. But when it clicked that it’s basically your own cells evolving to destroy you: well it’s pretty dark if you think about it.
napsterbr 8y ago
> "sit around" and wait till you die. Accurate description of life :)

gus_massa 8y ago

I don't want to make you more nervous, but there are some car accidents that are not fatal but breaks so many things that you have a loooooong time to recovery with many operations and medical problems (perhaps you loose most of your liver?). I'm not sure if they are predictible fatal after a long time. Some with heart or brain stroke. There are some variants between no stroke and fatal stroke.

martin_a 8y ago
Oh, I know, I know. I crashed with my motorcycle and had a concussion on my milt. Didn't think about it first but realized how bad it was, after doctors wouldn't let me go after four days in hospital. There is lots of scary stuff out there, I'm aware of that. Maybe it's also about the "actio = reactio" thing in my head. Crash = you may die or be severly injured. Overweight might lead to strokes, ok. I can grasp all of those concepts and understand them. But cancer can just come out of nowhere and it could kill you, although you did nothing wrong.
- skohan 8y ago
  Yeah it was like that with my dad. He was super fit, didn’t drink, probably worked too much but that was about it as far as vices. But all the same the cancer came and just swallowed him up. We tried everything but it was just the disease was totally indifferent to our efforts. Before that experience I never really got what the big deal with cancer was. But when it clicked that it’s basically your own cells evolving to destroy you: well it’s pretty dark if you think about it.

napsterbr 8y ago

> "sit around" and wait till you die. Accurate description of life :)