I won't generalize it. I was the youngest child of an old couple, and I lost my mum about 10 years back, and I am going to lose my father sometime in future, a

I won't generalize it. I was the youngest child of an old couple, and I lost my mum about 10 years back, and I am going to lose my father sometime in future, and I have been constantly thinking about it - literally everyday I have time to think - for the last 20 years of my life. I am in my early 30s! I have been grieving passively most of my life, because I have been acutely aware of the mortality of my parents, and cannot say its healthy. I wish I had "known" less about my parents mortality. I guess, my point is - death of loved ones suck, and everyone handles grieving differently.