I've had a difficult time finding meaning in the same things as others do. If I spot inconsistencies, I lose faith and get the opposite reaction than those who

I've had a difficult time finding meaning in the same things as others do. If I spot inconsistencies, I lose faith and get the opposite reaction than those who are receiving something from it. It's when I let go of the search for meaning that I find something like contentedness. I often find myself falling back into the hunt, but sometimes thinking about the vastness of space and time, the interwoven causality of the external and 'my' internal mind, there is some release. Hope that helps partner. Maybe I'll see you on down the trail temp1928384.