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I’m in this phase right now where I’m trying to cut off my mother, for the same reasons you listed. The thing that kills me is she knows she’s hurting me and t
by jbob2000 8y ago
I’m in this phase right now where I’m trying to cut off my mother, for the same reasons you listed.
The thing that kills me is she knows she’s hurting me and tries to change. She can make the changes for a few weeks but then reverts back to her “normal” self. It’s like watching an addict relapse, it’s so goddamn hard. I know there’s a human in there who loves me, but goddamn it, the demon who wants clean floors always wins.
- xapata 8y agoClean floors is all she wants? Doesn't seem terrible. I'm guessing that was a tip-of-the-iceberg kind of thing?
- jbob2000 8y agoShe has an idea in her head about how the world should work and she has a tome of rules and regulations that you must follow at all times. Lots of yelling and screaming when these rules are broken. There is no scale to her reactions. You walked on the floor with bare feet? Same reaction as if you broke a cherished heirloom.
- polotics 8y agoLooks like comorbid irritability, have her checked for thyroid dysfunctions. Hashimoto's a good candidate.
- jbob2000 8y agoThis would explain the harsh reactions, but doesn’t explain the need to create rules for everything. The more I think about it, the more I think that the rules are just an excuse to give into an anger addiction.
- tropo 8y agoIt sounds like some sort of obsession/compulsion thing. It can get weird: I once knew a guy who felt a need to balance left and right turns. He would count. After descending a normal multi-story staircase, he would spin in place to unwind the turns. The rules, no matter how weird, must be followed. Unfortunately in your case, you're expected to participate.