You have to choose it yourself. Programming is a difficult intellectual struggle and the only two things that I'm aware of that cause anyone to endeavor to do

You have to choose it yourself. Programming is a difficult intellectual struggle and the only two things that I'm aware of that cause anyone to endeavor to do it is either pressure (obligations to an employer, for instance) or enthusiasm; satisfying some desire to make a computer perform some specific task. So either take a job that inflicts deadlines or discover some passion great enough to make you hunch over a keyboard and squint at a display for hundreds of hours. If you can't or won't commit to the former and you haven't a passion that motivates the latter you may need to to reconsider your motivations.