First off this sounds much deeper than just avoiding a payment integration, it sounds like you are questioning your whole career...? You'll have to pay me for t

First off this sounds much deeper than just avoiding a payment integration, it sounds like you are questioning your whole career...? You'll have to pay me for that advice. LOL You are not your own servant, negotiate with yourself. - Jordan Peterson Why am I avoiding the task? How can I simplify the task? What would it take to accomplish the task? How can I incentivize the task? Make a deal with yourself. Whether it's the stack of bills that accumulate on my desk or the dev task I'm avoiding I ask myself these questions. Most of the time I'm avoiding some sort of responsibility that I've told myself isn't too important, it can wait because I have more important things todo. That's a lie, it wouldn't be weighing on my mind or take up space on my desk if it wasn't important. So I negotiate, if I devote two hours and start at 3pm I'll call it quits around 5pm to head home and hang out with my family. Then 5pm roles around and you reassess the problem to make another negotiation. This time your negotiation is a little more specific because you have a better understanding of the responsibility. Then someday your task will be complete and you'll be more efficient, more educated, and more prepared for the next. Much easier said than done.