I became a manager in October 2018, because my manager quit and he recommended that I take over. I'm on my way to going back to IC. I learned a lot about mysel

I became a manager in October 2018, because my manager quit and he recommended that I take over. I'm on my way to going back to IC. I learned a lot about myself. According to my new manager, I am/was doing just fine as a manager. My reports like me and think I'm tough but fair, which is the perfect review of a manager. However, I've since learned that I honestly just don't care to do anything a manager is supposed to do. I love being in 1x1s. I love talking to my manager. I thought hosting 1x1s with my own reports would be fun to do, but (and maybe this makes me a bad person) I've just discovered that I can't get emotionally invested in any of my reports. Maybe one day I'll get to that point but as for right now, I'm just not at that point. So I'd ask you, are you ready to fix people problems? The amount of coding you'll get to do will drop significantly, and the metrics by which you're evaluated will become completely different. Your job will now be to defend your reports from anything above you. This was something I have problems with as well. It's really hard for me to defend my reports when they make mistakes. I'm working to becoming a better, more empathetic person, but I'm just not there right now and it's a disservice to my reports to stay their manager when I just don't believe in them, and I can't convince myself to believe in them.